"You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star." - Nietzsche
"Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"
I finally saw that little light. For my entire life, I thought that this little light was something called resilience but oh how was I wrong. What I didn't understand for all of those years what that the light I could see was called joy. Joy was present in this horrifying moment. How could that be? How could something like joy exist in something so covered in black.
I will never forget that moment. I will never forget that feeling deep inside of me of being full of this darkness. This thicker than molasses type of feeling where I truly felt stuck. Trapped. In a prison of my own mind. This time of my life was certainly the darkest, but now that I look back on it, it seemed to have light as well.
That light was always there, I just wasn't looking for it back then.
The idea of even going back to this place of darkness to explore what is there isn't very comforting. That's a place of pain, of sorrow, and of misfortune. But it's also a place where I could learn a whole lot about life and the lesson I'm supposed to be taught. It's a place where if I bring some light in, I could illuminate all of my fears and see them for what they actually are.
Like all dark places, if you bring enough light they can be seen for what they truly are. But even in darkness itself, you have the ability to be a presence of light just being someone who is full of compassion and love. You might not have an external source of power, but you do have an internal source.
Into the depths we dive.
I'm bringing my light.
"Go to the deepest darkest place you can permit yourself to be and see if you can find a little light up in the top right corner?"
I finally saw that little light. For my entire life, I thought that this little light was something called resilience but oh how was I wrong. What I didn't understand for all of those years what that the light I could see was called joy. Joy was present in this horrifying moment. How could that be? How could something like joy exist in something so covered in black.
I will never forget that moment. I will never forget that feeling deep inside of me of being full of this darkness. This thicker than molasses type of feeling where I truly felt stuck. Trapped. In a prison of my own mind. This time of my life was certainly the darkest, but now that I look back on it, it seemed to have light as well.
That light was always there, I just wasn't looking for it back then.
The idea of even going back to this place of darkness to explore what is there isn't very comforting. That's a place of pain, of sorrow, and of misfortune. But it's also a place where I could learn a whole lot about life and the lesson I'm supposed to be taught. It's a place where if I bring some light in, I could illuminate all of my fears and see them for what they actually are.
Like all dark places, if you bring enough light they can be seen for what they truly are. But even in darkness itself, you have the ability to be a presence of light just being someone who is full of compassion and love. You might not have an external source of power, but you do have an internal source.
Into the depths we dive.
I'm bringing my light.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is a professional life coach at AYKME Life Coaching and writes daily articles on the journey of life at The Words Of Encouragement Dive into these Letting Go Quotes for more inspiration in letting go and healing the past.
